I Thought That Time Was Healing

Time

(Grief Poems – Loss Of A Child)

I thought that time was healing
all the hurt you left behind –
That empty spaces could be filled
my arms, my heart, my mind.

And though my body looks the same
as it did when you were here –
The emptiness is growing
even bigger with each year.

I thought that time was healing
all the agonizing pain –
That as the tears were fading,
soon I wouldn’t feel the same.

And though I can be smiling
and you think that I’ll survive –
The pain is in my blood now
I have nowhere else to hide.

I thought that time was healing
all the loss a mother feels –
That now you live within my heart
I had you near me still.

But I need so much to touch you
to see you smile again –
And those memories I’m told are mine
can never feel the same.

I thought that time was healing
all the while the mask was worn –
That underneath a new me
was waiting to be born.

But now I find I am the mask
it helps to keep me safe –
And though my heart is breaking,
you won’t see it in my face.

I thought that time was healing
all those tears my eyes have seen –
That aching arms that miss you
could be satisfied with dreams.

But here I am, in pain again
and healing stands alone –
A mother weeps, the world can see
for a child who can’t come home.