Time

(Grief Poems - Loss Of A Child)

I thought that time was healing

All the hurt you left behind,

That empty spaces could be filled…

My arms, my heart, my mind;

And though my body looks the same

As it did when you were here,

The emptiness is growing

Even bigger with each year.

I thought that time was healing

All the agonizing pain,

That as the tears were fading,

Soon I wouldn’t feel the same.

And though I can be smiling

And you think that I’ll survive,

The pain is in my blood now;

I have nowhere else to hide.

I thought that time was healing

All the loss a mother feels;

That now you live within my heart,

I had you near me still.

But I need so much to touch you,

To see you smile again,

And those memories I’m told are mine

Can never feel the same.

I thought that time was healing

All the while the mask was worn,

That underneath a new me

Was waiting to be born.

But now I find I am the mask;

It helps to keep me safe,

And though my heart is breaking,

You won’t see it in my face.

I thought that time was healing

All those tears my eyes have seen,

That aching arms that miss you

Could be satisfied with dreams;

But here I am, in pain again

And healing stands alone.

A mother weeps, the world can see

For a child who can’t come home.